Make his life worse and worse I hope she smartens up that her therapist actually gets her thinking right and responsible but I have serious doubts she'll ever change if six years of marriage didn't civilize her I doubt a therapist will I. Still don't get what I did wrong I'm a good listener I'm a provider I can clean up after myself I did my best to never to make her feel unloved or unwanted I raised her kid I helped her aunts and uncles with home renovations. I had a great relationship with her folks her father and I used to go out for a beer and watch the game together independent of her so it's not as if there was friction in how I dealt with her family and my family adored. And accepted her and her son from day one there were sexual issues I guess but it's not like we had a sexless marriage we could have had better communication there as there were some conflicts over dominance. But I thought what we had was strong enough to endure something like that turns out there was really no relationship at all just a damn illusion I wish I had something more positive to end this on.
But this will be my last update if you're interested to know what I intend to do with my life moving forward it's. Basically one of two options both will take place after this event with max is over I can't imagine myself leaving sherry in the middle of all this since she has been a constant pillar of support for me this whole time option one if sherry. Wants to move back to her home state when this is over I'll give her a kiss goodbye and send her on her way no offense to that state but I don't see a future for me there if she wants me to go with her. We will have a discussion and I might do some research on the area to see if I'm misjudging it she makes me happy she feels like how a loving partner ought to feel like I'm not going to tell her how much she means to. Me because I want her to be making choices that are the best for her and her daughter without me clouting her judgment if she in the course of our discussions tells me she loves me and wants to give us an honest try I'll tell.
Her how I feel and we'll go from there I don't want to be morbid but if max doesn't pull through we're both leaving the state. Anyway option two if sherry and I don't continue our relationship the answer is easier I have friends and family on the west coast that I've been missing in my career has more opportunities for advancement there anyhow I could really rediscover myself on my own. And make a life for myself in all honesty this is probably what I'll most likely do go surfing again stay in shape find someone that'll actually love me start a family the possibilities are endless I've mentioned this to sherry and she expressed some interest. In making a move like that because she's never been out west before that would be an undertaking but if the love and willingness is there I'd be happy to date over several months before deciding to take that step option three I forgot three I. Could just remain here and climb the ladder at work now that there is nothing preventing me from doing that I'm currently a quality control floor supervisor in the manufacturing industry most guys who've worked here as long as me have already gone corporate and sit.