But he's never been known to vanish for days on end with the rumor being he's into drugs now when it comes to my relationship with sherry we are quietly pursuing a romantic relationship we're both equally aware that we would just be dealing with our. Trauma and these feelings might not be 100 real or lasting but if I can be allowed to be vain for a moment it's the best sex I've had in my life I've never been more physically attracted to any of my previous partners and I. Find myself at work daydreaming about her toward the end of the work day I don't think I've ever had such a strong want for someone before and all told she tells me it's something mutual I've been back to work this week and both days. She stopped by to bring me dinner she made and that's damn near the cutest thing anyone's ever done for me once again I feel like life is beating the crap out of me at the same time everything is going right. Final Update.
This is going to be my. Final Update. As I've had two friends in my real life approach me over my original posts and I'm really uncomfortable sharing this with anyone other than internet strangers so after this is posted I'm going to spend a day or. So responding to comments before signing out permanently from this account it was supposed to be a throwaway for these reasons anyhow the last week and a half have been an extremely depressing and stressful time I don't know why it took. So long for it to set in with me but in the days after my last update the new information that my ex gave me concerning her relationship with max started eating me alive I started imagining them sneaking off every time my back was turned.
I faced the fact that she was never truly mine that I was just some placeholder man and babysitter here so I could provide a cover for her degenerate relationship by the end of it I came to the realization that I'm not going to continue. To live my life as an extension of hers this of course means that I will not be seeking any sort of relationship with her son after the divorce it is the worst feeling I've ever had in my life. But I can't imagine myself ever getting better ever truly living my life on my own terms if I can't get out from under her shadow I know many of you don't want to hear me say this I never thought I'd have to. But he's still young I'm still young and there will be many years to heal from this sherry's life has been a living hell for the last four days her brother had arrived earlier in the week and she was. So relieved to finally see her family and all this when she introduced me as the ex-husband of max's affair partner and that we had been supporting each other through this he pretty much figured out that we were seeing each other he took me aside.