Things going on in my life I find myself thinking of her in a romantic light and while it's probably not healthy feeling anything positive is preferable to feeling nothing but misery and doubt again maybe I'm reading too much into this and I'm mistaking her. Emotional support as something more than it is because my mind is effed but she's acting toward me now how past girlfriends and even the ex-wife did before I officially started seeing them I mentioned it in the comments that I was trying to lighten the. Mood with my dark humor and said something like I can't even go out and get a revenge light without the possibility of killing someone referencing my hiv fears and her response was to bring up the fact that if I am infected by default she. Is most likely infected too and that since our partners were sleeping together in a gross way it's like she and I were already having sex there were a few moments after that and a look which I took to be an invitation. But I changed the subject I should be thinking about more important things but I'm getting distracted by this part of me the smarter part knows that a foundation like this is horrible and acting on it might spell disaster for our upcoming divorces.
On the other hand I do have a real mental and physical attraction to this woman one I'm 75 sure is mutual and I fear that not acting will make her think I'm not open to this at any point and she'll move on and I'll. Lose another person who makes me happy if anybody has an answer with a god damn help but huge digression aside I. Still feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown but the divorce seems to be going in a favorable for me I will. Still be a dad oh and where is max in all of this nobody really knows but he was couchsurfing their first two nights with friends out of state he's called sherry like three times since she went nuclear. But that's it.
Update Four. Well today's the day we decided to tell my son about what's happening moving forward this is not a talk that either of us are looking forward to but it was inevitable I spent a little time on the phone with my student bx last night. And her tone changed something I wasn't expecting at first she seemed resigned to divorce and didn't fight me on it on the phone she was in tears at points trying to explain away this relationship with her cousin she's trying to say. Now that nothing physical has gone on between during the years she and I were together only random dirty texts the storm is coming I think because. Now she says she ought to have my car because I worked 20 minutes from where we currently live and she works an hour away saying it's needed because if she has our son all the time she's going to need something to get to work.