Also breaks my heart that my children in reality no longer have a functioning relationship with their mother question how do you answer this question from your child why doesn't mommy want to see me anymore doesn't she love me how the heck do you answer that if anyone knows please let me know because I sure as hell don't every day. I wake up and tell myself that my heart is already smashed into so many broken pieces that it can't possibly break anymore only to be proven wrong all day every day my wife. Still doesn't know that I can monitor her communications or she doesn't care she is 100 convinced that I will never leave her and that my reaction to her behavior is totally unjustified she keeps talking badly to her friends about me our marriage and our children. I don't understand why she hates us so much we haven't done any of the things she accuses us of doing to her friends as I mentioned before my lawyer won a temporary restraining order against her there was a hearing. Yesterday morning and since there were no new direct threats it wasn't extended my lawyer suggested using the fact that she knowingly infected me as a threat to try to get her to agree to an undisputed divorce.
I wish we could separate in a reasonable process I hate the fact that I have to see her as the enemy and always assume the worst possible outcome if she wanted to leave me. I would be able to live with that but why force me into this extremely adversarial process why does she do her best to hurt people that used to love her as much as possible in the process what possible gains can she have from this. I would appreciate any insight on this it just doesn't make any sense to me if I go to court I will probably have to pay her a lump sum for the equity in her house etc. I will probably not be liable for alimony and since she doesn't show any interest in the kids I am hopeful I will win custody of them if it goes to court. Anyway my lawyer suggested we try to get her agreement for an amicable divorce I agreed and we will meet with my student vx wife and her representative hopefully this week the ex-husband that was defrauded by the lying harpy spends new year's eve with me and the kids the injustice of the justice system against fathers is just incredible.
Now I have no delusions of receiving a fair process if we go to court his ex lied her head off and the court just took it as fact no proof whatsoever he has hardly seen his children since he has been forced to pay unreasonable amounts of alimony and child support and it's pretty much broken him he has been contemplating ending things permanently with the new evidence he gets from me he has renewed hope we both talk to my lawyer she suggests he sits on the evidence until the meeting with my wife and her counsel if he takes action. Now it will show our hand that we have access to all their communications my lawyer's goal is to divorce me and my wife as soon as possible as smoothly as possible right. Now I just hope I can get away from her if she decides to fight it can drag on for a long long time it's stressing me out. I just need to get free I will post an. Update.