Unfortunately I'm not in the mood to give her that gift this past weekend I accompanied obs to dinner with no intention other than enjoying each other's company and chatting. We talked about all sorts of things things got flirty between us and I must admit I was very reluctant to entertain the rapidly changing mood. Well I guess I should say the night ended in a very passionate way sorry for tmi it was probably the most mind-blowing sex I've ever had. Obs is very much a giver and spades above my ex I did not intend for it to go that far but obs was willing and I was as well learned quite a few. More tricks in the sack first time I ever had someone that enthusiastic to please me and not the other way around guess I shouldn't call her obs anymore as she's divorced her ex.
But for privacy's sake I'll just use that I do not think we will take a relationship further to be honest. I think the hormones and wine got the best of us that night she would like to but I am undecided I need to sort myself. Out emotionally and I think she does as well I feel very good though people might not like hearing this but the sex I had with obs. Really helped a lot with my residual self-esteem issues I felt desired alive and finally understood what I was missing out on I will never. Settle for robotic sex again what was more satisfying was knowing that I was not cheating and did not lower my morals all things.
Considered I'm very proud of how I handled all this crap I wasn't perfect but did the best I could I'm probably coming out very lucky compared to many. Bhs even if I did lose a substantial amount of money in this process but it was because I was willing to absorb advice and listen to people with experience. Instead of going in blind and hoping for the best for that I will be forever grateful to you guys you and everyone who lent me an ear. Saved me from destroying my self-worth even further takeaways respect yourself never ever accept disrespect from anyone else not even people closest to you everyone. Deserves a healthy fulfilling relationship never settle for scraps from your partner every committed relationship should include a healthy and fulfilling sex life if your partner is not giving his or her all to you but did so before with.
Someone else or in an affair do not tolerate it I'm not advocating sexual abuse or rape simply lay out your dissatisfaction if your partner isn't willing to meet them. Do not settle for boring sex unless you? Both agree on it it is okay to walk away from that communicate communicate communicate I cannot stress. How super important that is? If you're ever betrayed only you can truly heal yourself it took a long time for me to understand.