Mama, I mean it, James. Your heart I trust you with. Ava's is mine to protect, too. I know, he said. I know.
Evelyn straightened her blouse, walked back toward the kitchen, stopped in the doorway, and said without turning around. The eggs smell good, by the way. You don't know how to cook with peppers like that. James stared at the back of her head. Go handle your baby situation, she said, and walked into the kitchen to introduce herself to Sophia Mitchell.
He stayed on the couch for 30 seconds longer than he needed to, just breathing. Then Noah's pre-cry became an actual cry, a full clear declaration of wakefulness and need. And James heard Ava say excited and loud, "I hear him. He's awake. And he heard Sophia laugh from the kitchen, a real laugh, surprised out of her.
And he heard his mother say something low and ry that he couldn't make out. But that made Sophia laugh again. And James Carter sat on his couch in his house that no longer felt empty and pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes for one single moment before he put himself back together, stood up and walked toward the sound of his family, whatever shape it was, currently taking the way he always had forward one step, then the next. That was Sunday. By Wednesday, they had a rhythm.
Not a comfortable one. Not yet, but a rhythm which was different. James left for the shop at 6:30 every morning. Sophia had Noah's morning routine down to a science feed change, a short period of floor time, then a morning nap that she used to work on job applications, which she did with the focused intensity of someone who understood that her time in this house had an expiration date and she needed to respect it. Ava came home from school at 3:15.
She went immediately to find Noah, who by Wednesday had moved from the guest room setup to a small corner of the living room where Sophia had created a little zone with a mat and a few toys. Ava would drop her backpack, wash her hands without being asked because James had made that non-negotiable, and sit down on the floor with Noah like it was the most natural thing in the world. Like a baby had always lived here, like this had always been part of her afternoon. James watched this from the kitchen doorway Thursday evening. He was supposed to be reviewing an invoice.
He was watching his daughter make a 8-month-old, almost nine, make a face that was clearly meant to be funny. And watching Noah respond with the full-body delight of someone who had never seen anything funnier in his entire life. She's a natural, Sophia said from beside him. He turned. She was holding two mugs of coffee.
Had made them without asking. He took the one she offered. She's always liked babies, he said. She asks me every few months when we're getting a sibling. Sophia's expression did something complicated.
What do you tell her? I tell her that's not in the current plan. A pause. She knows about her mother. Sophia asked.
She knows enough. She knows her mother wasn't able to be in her life. She knows that happens sometimes and it's not her fault. She knows she's got me and my mother and Marcus and Dion and half the church and enough people who love her to fill a stadium. He took a sip of coffee.