Suggested I'm having trust issues turns out I don't have any I'm one step to become a very gullible person but the therapist noticed I have a lot of insecurities due to my obesity since I can remember I was a chubby nerdy guy at school never a boyfriend always best. Friend I had my first girlfriend at 18 and she dumped me a week later for a better looking guy I went to an engineering high school so ladies were few my next relationship was at my 20s with a very toxic girl who blamed me for everything even for the rain she really. Did a job on me making me feel guilty for anything that pops in her mind later. I started working because my family had money problems and I didn't have another relationship until I met Jane at University the previous session to the last one with my therapist we discussed my feelings about not having kids she has helped me to get my priorities in order. Number one me and everything that covers myself like physical health gym and eating well intelligence studying learning mental challenges and soul beliefs moral ethics number two people who live with me Jane number three family and friends number four work number five Leisure and entertainment.
Last session was about Jane the therapist asked about my plans I told her I will divorce Jane she told me it is normal I'm in such distress because my priority too is crumbling I will have to pass through similar stages of grieving death denial anger bargaining. Depression and acceptance I had to Google them because I forgot them I'm in the bargaining stage because I'm thinking a lot of what ifs for example what if she really is remorseful what if we're the golden couple who will survive. An infidelity but the reality is that I will never trust her ever again it will kill me knowing that she's at home alone doing God knows what when I'm at work torture for me depression is a dangerous day age in my case because it can lead. Me to gaining weight again I should stick to the gym and watch closely my diet hope this info helps people who are grieving. Now the update I've been very busy I applied for promotion at the job I could have taken it a long time ago but it Demands a lot of traveling I feel it will help me heal to be away also I've been looking for a new place to live and I found one small apartment perfect for me I've already paid three months of rent in advance.